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[Oct. 29th, 2006|12:03 pm] |
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Can you believe it has only been two months since we left Florida? So much has changed. |
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| I have to say this... |
[Sep. 28th, 2006|12:56 am] |
I hope you all are having the times of your lives in college.
Love and despair are two of the strongest emotions we have. In a way, they are opposites. It's so easy to become damaged but so hard to recover. It's hitting me hard right now how much people need that love. Make a difference, give love. Heal the world. |
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[Aug. 17th, 2006|02:33 am] |
It's 2:30 am and I don't feel like sleeping. Before I leave I feel compelled to write a post so I guess now is as good a time as any. I'm not driving up until the 24th but most everyone else will be gone by the weekend, so here it is.
I guess first off I should say that every person I got to know over the past few years means a lot to me. You all inspire me so much- more than you will ever know. The closest friends I have are the ones who inspire me the most, and who, in a sense, make me who I am. No matter how far the times we shared together may lie in our past, you all will never be any less a part of me. In saying goodbye to you all, even if it is temporary, I have come to realize that time waits for no one. Instead you learn to accept what is inevitable and move on without forgetting what you care about.
Secondly, the introspection that this summer allowed me to do brought me to another conclusion that I'm writing down as much for me as for everyone else who might read this. I have come to more deeply realize that judgment of other people, although human nature, is most always based on insufficient understanding. There is a fine distinction between looking at someone and looking inside someone. And there is never a way to know how much of a person you've seen, or how much still remainds hidden. All that you will ever know about someone is what they are willing to show you, and all that people want is the chance to be loved as themselves. Accept people for who and how they are, especially as the world of college begins. Someone once told me that time will never heal pain, it can only make it numb. It seems to me that love is the only thing that can repair what's broken. And in order to love we must first learn to accept.
So I guess that in the struggle, the joy, the thinking, and all the experiences past and yet to come, I say that to live you have to love. Love yourself. Love your family, your friends. Accept people for who that are, who they used to be, and who they want to be. Help heal the wounds that life creates and time ignores. That's what you all have taught me. That's what I have taught myself. I wish you happiness, success, and stregth for the future and wherever it takes you.
<3 Katie |
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[Aug. 1st, 2006|07:32 pm] |
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| | Seasons of Love- RENT | ] |
Hellooooooooooooooo to you all!
I actually don't know when I last updated.
I'm not sure if I've taken on a new philosophy or just started living out the one that evolved by Senior year, but right now what's important is doing whatever brings happiness, letting go of whatever doesn't, and refreshing myself for college.
“Nothing in the world is permanent, and we’re foolish when we ask anything to last, but surely we’re still more foolish not to take delight in it while we have it.”
-W. Somerset Maugham
P.S. RENT is an amazing movie and definitely worth seeing. =) |
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[Jul. 19th, 2006|01:26 am] |
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Reading old entries is so bizarre. I can remember being that person back then. In a sense, its one of the very few ways to witness how experiences have changed me.
I'm back from Gainesville. It's such a weird transition, I had just been getting used to the college lifestyle. Minus the academic portion. I'd say it was a nice getaway from everything that seems to weigh me down here. To be immersed in friends and activities like that is such a blessing. I might put a few pictures up on facebook but I didn't take many.
Last night, or I guess I should say early this morning, we went to the football stadium, climbed the stands, and just sat there looking up at the night sky. Situations like that are so rare, and lend themselves to a type of unusually introspective contemplation. Which has its ups and downs.
Thinking is something I've been doing a lot of lately.
( Monet's 'Magpie' )
I think Monet was brilliant. |
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| "Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore." -Andre Gide |
[Jul. 2nd, 2006|04:40 pm] |
Ok soooooooo
I think we should have a beach day with sports/food/music/reading/laughing/talking etc. etc. etc.
I think it would make a great "end of the summer" party (one of the many I'm sure), once all the Summer B scholars return.
Been doing absolutely nothing except sleeping in and staying out late and going places with friends. It's been SO MUCH FUN but now I feel unproductive so I'm about to start getting serious about piano and a job and getting ready for college.
One thing's for sure I can't wait to be on my own and construct a new life the way I want it. The line is finally drawn between who you want to be and who you used to be. The future is finally mine to determine and not a result of decisions I didn't necessarily have control over. Don't get me wrong, I worked hard in high school and I take responsibility for the good and the bad, but the big, overriding aspects of my life never fully felt mine. Now they are. I chose my college, I will be choosing my classes, how I want to spend ALL of my time, and how I want whatever I do to affect my future.
It's a lot to think about. College is the time to expand yourself and who you are. To enjoy life, and to know when to take things seriously. I don't want to waste my time in "the easy class to meet some requirement" or class I "had to take" like in high school. I finally want to learn for learning's sake and enjoy it. I want the chance to appreciate the information and not cram useless facts to pass tests like I know I did in high school. But at the same time I want to be able to go outside and sit and read somewhere when I feel like it. Or to visit a friend or have fun at a party. And to mix them all together to create a life that feels meaningful, worthwhile, and enjoyable.
It feels so good to know that I'm about to face a world that is completely, and entirely, mine for the shaping, and so daunting at the same time.
Therefore...We should all have confidence. In ourselves. In our peers. In our futures. It is the only way to be successful, and it is ultimately the only way to really live. Believe in yourself, enjoy the experiences. It's time to turn the potential into the actual. I have faith in all of you. Whatever you put your mind to you can achieve. |
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[Jun. 28th, 2006|11:13 am] |
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I hope everyone is having an awesome summer |
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[Jun. 17th, 2006|04:02 pm] |
So I was looking in a community of members from my middle school on myspace and I found this:
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=13347613
He passed away October 27th of last year after a hard battle with cancer. He was such an amazing person. When I went to his funeral, I was in awe of how many lives he had touched. And I am definitely one of them.
Cherish the memories you have with your friends. |
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[Jun. 16th, 2006|01:06 am] |
There is a funeral mass for Ronald in four days.
I don't know if I can go. Normally I would think through these things for a long time and come to a conclusion I knew I was ok with. But this time I just don't want to have to go there in my mind. That part of me is numb and I don't want to bring back the pain.
I just did that with my grandparents... |
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[Jun. 14th, 2006|12:32 am] |
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mmmm IHOP for dinner. I'm sorry, INTERNATIONAL HOUSE OF PANCAKES for dinner. Or whichever one we were at according to Trevor.
I had so much food today. But I attempted to incorporate protein...
I hope the good times are many and the sad times are few for you all. You never know what someone might be dealing with. So let's just try and make sure everyone is having a good time.
Love Katie
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[Jun. 10th, 2006|10:44 am] |
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
no one ever wants to bother to explain
of the ( heartache ) life can bring and what it means
6-10-05 |
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[Jun. 8th, 2006|11:42 am] |
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Where there is hatred, let me sow love
Where there is injury, pardon
Where there is doubt, faith
Where there is darkness, light
Where there is sadness, joy
May I not so much seek to be consoled, as to console
To be understood, as to understand
To be loved, as to love.
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For it is in giving that we receive. |
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[May. 26th, 2006|12:04 am] |
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Wow the past few days have been crazy!
I have been to so many houses in the past few days and done so many things. THANK YOU to everyone who made the past few days possible. It's been awesome! I love the feeling of no more obligations or impending deadlines or school related activities.
I'm looking forward to Morikami tomorrow and seeing everyone again.
Nothing seems constant or settled, but I'm growing used to it that way and it can be a good thing I guess. As long as fun is involved.
I think everyone is awesome and should feel extremely relieved, satisfied, and proud of all the hard work and hell they've put up with the past four years. This definitely looks like it will be a memorable summer. |
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| Happy Graduation, Everyone |
[May. 20th, 2006|11:20 pm] |
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And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cause I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And designer love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these words
And sing out loud
Cause everyone is forgiven now
Tonight's the night the world begins again
And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And that's faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them
So take these words
And sing out loud
Cause everyone is forgiven now
Tonight's the night the world begins again
I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these words
And sing out loud
Cause everyone is forgiven now
Tonight's the night the world begins again |
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[May. 19th, 2006|08:36 am] |
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Sometimes, in fact often, you can put your whole heart into something and in an instant everything changes. You lose people. You lose your purpose. You become bitter, and angry, and sad, and confused. I don't know if anybody else knows what that feels like. Whether or not its something you could control, one little thing changes everything. I don't see the point of a lot of things anymore. Its hopeless anyway. I hope nobody else feels this way and I wish everyone happy, successful lives. But when I look at my past, most of what I worked towards- friendship, academics, helping others, music, are all things that I wasn't adequate enough to be successful at. And I hate that. |
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[May. 15th, 2006|11:44 pm] |
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You know what
the things you do affect people
I am so sick of hypocrites |
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[May. 10th, 2006|07:25 pm] |
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TAB energy drinks are GROSS.
After history tomorrow all I have is Spanish which I'm not studying for.
It's almost over... |
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| TRUE STORY |
[May. 3rd, 2006|07:34 pm] |
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A Charlotte, North Carolina lawyer purchased a box of very rare and expensive cigars, then insured them against fire, among other things.
Within a month, having smoked his entire stockpile of these great
cigars and without yet having made even his first premium payment on the
policy the lawyer filed claim against the insurance company. In his claim,
the lawyer stated the cigars were lost "in a series of small fires." The
insurance company refused to pay, citing the obvious reason that the man had
consumed the cigars in the normal fashion.
The lawyer sued, and won! Delivering the ruling,
the judge agreed with the insurance company that the claim was frivolous. The judge stated
nevertheless, that the lawyer "held a policy from the company which it had warranted that the cigars were insurable and also guaranteed that it would insure them against fire, without defining what is considered to be unacceptable fire" and was obligated to pay the claim.
Rather than endure lengthy and costly appeal process, the insurance company accepted the ruling and paid $15,000 to the lawyer for his loss of the cigars lost in the "fires".
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After the lawyer cashed the check, the insurance company had him
arrested on 24 counts of arson. With his own insurance claim and testimony
from the previous case being used against him, the lawyer was convicted
of intentionally burning his insured property and was sentenced to 24
months in jail and a $24,000 fine. |
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[Apr. 29th, 2006|08:12 pm] |
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| | Teenage Wasteland- The Who | ] |
( awww ) |
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